Mothers I Thank..oh and a few Fathers too

I have so many words inside, but I am not sure how to express them to do them justice.

I am so very thankful for the mother that raised me, she may have not done everything perfect, I know I was not an easy child. But she help me to become the woman and mother I am today, she still continues to bless me with help and knowledge so that I may raise my children. She is my saving grace.

To my mother in law, thank you for rasing such a wonderful son. You taught him love, strength, and compassion, and not to forget, how to cook. You raised him to be a full partner in his life as a husband and father.

To my sister, I know we are more to eachother than we ever thought possible, considering what we put eachother through as kids. Glad we can help eachother when the kids drive us bonkers.

To all my friends, you show me that we all have faults, but we can overcome the trials and stand tall against the storms that batter us. You are the women I look to.

To my husband, I thank you for the love, support, compassion, and the yummy cinnamon buns! You are so amazing to me. All the hard work you do so that I might stay home and raise our girls. You truly are wonderful.

To my Heavenly Father, thank you for sending these wonderful people into my life. For giving me faith and strength to raise the tender special spirit that Arianna is, I know you have the faith in me to give her a full and wonderful life. Thank you for Kenna, she has shown me that I can be so much more than I am, that I can grow everyday as she does.

So.... Happy Mothers Day!!

It is so much more than a day to be spoiled by your hubbs and kids, it is a day to thank those that make you the mother you are!!!

I'm Stuck.....HELP!!!!

So when your main mode of getting around is rolling, you can find yourself in some interesting places. This is how I found Arna this afternoon, stuck under her crib, she was crying when I came in but started to laugh when I took her picture. Gotta love this cutie!!

random stuff

If you never had the chance to see it, this was the bedroom both my girls had when they were babies. Sadly to say, the family that bought our house has since painted the room salmon pink. But I will always remember how I felt in this very special place, the calm and peace it always brought for all of us. I had the rocking chair under this tree, really felt as you were a part of this special world. The mural was designed and painted by Jason Richardson, hubbs to Matt's cousin. He has such talent, I will have him come and do some painting in Arnas room when will build our addition and re-do the master to suit her needs.

Lots to catch up on

This has been one crazy week, and I hope it is getting better.

So monday started it all, Arianna woke with a mild fever so I kept her home from school. I was needing to go into my hubbs shop to work on the bills, but with Arna home I couldn't. My sweet mom offered to watch her for me, so on my way to the shop I get a flat tire. My sweet hubbs came to my rescue and changed the tire, yet my spare was on the verge of flat itself. I limped into the gas station and filled it up. I then had to scrap working, it was time to pick Kenna up from school. My mom offered to come back later after she took care of some things. So after lunch she came back and I headed out, and still nothing went right. I was missing lots of paper work, so I couldn't get my work done, and it was time for my mom to pick up my nephew, so I ran out to pick him up from school. I got back home to hear that Cardiology had called, Arianna had an ECHO scheduled on Tuesday, made the appt back in Feb. So I call back and the sedation nurse is concerned about doing the procedure, they want her to go under general anesthesia, which requires and OR and an anesthesiologist. They were working on getting her into the OR for Tuesday, but no guarantee. I waited for two hours, going crazy, when they called back and told me they could fit her in. We has to be there at 6:30 a.m.

So Tuesday started early, had to wake up at 12:00 a.m. to stop her feed, then again at 4:00 a.m. to give her a bolus of clear liquids. Back up at 5:00 to get in the shower and be ready to leave home by 5:50. On the road I hit every red light. At the hospital we waited it the pre-op room for an hour and a half before it was her turn to go in. the procedure was to take only an hour, but took an hour and a half, took a while to get an IV started. Then another hour in recovery, she had a really rough time coming out of the anesthesia, just cried. I still had to go down to see her cardiologist, but the sweet nurse called him and asked if he could come see her in post-op, and he did. The results were not what I wanted to hear, her plumo pressures were high, at least 80, he gave my the options, not worth going into. We soon were packing up and heading home.

My mom and sister-in law kept Kenna for the afternoon so that I could catch a few winks.

I noticed when I got home that I had missed a few text msgs, one from Matt's bro and his wife. Little baby boy Cooper had been born late on Monday night, what a cutie. So that had cheered me up.

Arianna's cardiologist called me at home, he said he missed telling me a few things from the ECHO, he spent some more time looking at it and the report. He said the the right wall of her heart had not increased in thickness, meaning her heart was not working any harder, so it may be possible that her plumo pressure was not as high as he first thought. He wanted be to increase her Amlodipine med, helps to lower the blood pressure. He wants me to consider going into the cath-lab to get a better look at those pressures. All this made me feel much better.



Matt and I took a trip to the hospital to meet Cooper. He is so little and so sweet, I think I have forgotten how little newborn babies are. I think that this was the best way to end the day, filled my heart with joy.



Today is going to be a much better day, even though they skies are cloudy. Kenna is going off track today and we are going to have some good time alone together before Arianna gets back from school!

It can only go up from here!!!

Full House

I had so much fun last night. My two nephews, Will and Xander, and my niece and nephew, Xendria and Zarek can over to play. What fun it was to hear the laughter and running of five sweet kids in my house. Arianna rolled around trying to keep up with them nut ultimately decided to play with her Aunt and Papa.
I wish I had thought about it and took some pics, but I am a slacker, I was enjoying the moment.

It makes me want more and more babies, a house full would be just fine with me.
We'll see where life here takes us!!!

Craving...I want another one please

So my brother and his family came down from Logan for a visit, so I got to meet my newest nephew, what a cutie. So now I am wanting a new baby of my own. I really want me a baby boy. We are anxiously awaiting the birth of Cooper, and he should be here any day now. I hope that spending time with these little ones will help to ease my wanting of a baby boy.
I trully don't want Kenna to be an only child, I know that Arianna will leave us someday and Kenna will not have that sibling friend. I know that there would be atleast a 7 year difference in age, but whose to say they wouldn't have a good bond as they grow older.
But then there is the issue of cost, our insurance has increased our out of pocket for maternity to $7500, just how would we be able to do that along with the $2500 we put out every year for Arianna's care.
I think a lot of praying and discussion needs to be done on this issue.

what is this funky feeling

I know that moving was what we needed to do, this house is great for all of us, but I really miss my friends and neighbors. Today I just feel so lonely. Arna is feeling a bit sick and has had some increased seizures today. We are stuck in the house cause I don't want to take her anywhere, the wind is blowing like crazy, so I can't spend time outside. Isolated is the word that keeps coming to mind when I try to describe how I feel. Seems silly the more I think about it, I have my kids to take care of, and Kenna keeps coming by to give me hugs, Thirsty is laying a my feet keeping them warm.
Perhaps I just want the sun to shine all day, no more gloomy clouds, I am so ready for the summer, for camping and outings with other adults.
I am excitedly planning our trip to South Dakota in July for the SOFT conference. We are going to take the weekend before it starts and travel through Jackson Hole, Yellowstone , and the Black Hills. I really can't wait.
I think I will go find some pics to scrapbook, Kenna always loves to help. Maybe that will snap me out of this lonely funk.