Craving...I want another one please

So my brother and his family came down from Logan for a visit, so I got to meet my newest nephew, what a cutie. So now I am wanting a new baby of my own. I really want me a baby boy. We are anxiously awaiting the birth of Cooper, and he should be here any day now. I hope that spending time with these little ones will help to ease my wanting of a baby boy.
I trully don't want Kenna to be an only child, I know that Arianna will leave us someday and Kenna will not have that sibling friend. I know that there would be atleast a 7 year difference in age, but whose to say they wouldn't have a good bond as they grow older.
But then there is the issue of cost, our insurance has increased our out of pocket for maternity to $7500, just how would we be able to do that along with the $2500 we put out every year for Arianna's care.
I think a lot of praying and discussion needs to be done on this issue.

what is this funky feeling

I know that moving was what we needed to do, this house is great for all of us, but I really miss my friends and neighbors. Today I just feel so lonely. Arna is feeling a bit sick and has had some increased seizures today. We are stuck in the house cause I don't want to take her anywhere, the wind is blowing like crazy, so I can't spend time outside. Isolated is the word that keeps coming to mind when I try to describe how I feel. Seems silly the more I think about it, I have my kids to take care of, and Kenna keeps coming by to give me hugs, Thirsty is laying a my feet keeping them warm.
Perhaps I just want the sun to shine all day, no more gloomy clouds, I am so ready for the summer, for camping and outings with other adults.
I am excitedly planning our trip to South Dakota in July for the SOFT conference. We are going to take the weekend before it starts and travel through Jackson Hole, Yellowstone , and the Black Hills. I really can't wait.
I think I will go find some pics to scrapbook, Kenna always loves to help. Maybe that will snap me out of this lonely funk.

Hee Hee

So we have this large bay window in our kitchen, and the birds seem to fly into it at least once a day. I can't help but laugh because it seems to be the same bird always doing it. It does however scare the crud out of me each time you hear the bang.

Yesterday Kenna and I got to spend the afternoon together, we went to see Disney on ice, thanks to Hope Kids. What I would do without this wonderful support group I don't know. We are able to do so many things at no cost to us, movies and outings are things we just can't find the spare funds to do anymore. I am so grateful to them for all that they do for families struggling though medical issues.
I was happy to see my sweet girl smillin and having a good time. We had a good day without any fighting, that seems to be the norm for us two. I know she is six and had to grow up too fast, had to learn about so much that a little one should just not have to deal with. She struggles often with everything Arianna throws at us, she mostly hates to trips to the hospital, she misses both mom and Arianna. She and I are trying to find a way to better cope with everything, how she can express her feelings without snapping at me, and me to not snap at her just cause I am exhausted.

Arianna is doing well and seems to be of the worst of this nasty RSV. I am so happy that our hospital stay was so short, she seems to do better at home where she can get around. Just lying in a bed doesn't help her loosen the crap in her lungs, but rollin an crawling though the house seems to do the trick. I am eagerly waiting the day she can return to school!!

Trisomy Awareness Day

Today, March 13, is Trisomy 13 Awareness day. A day to celebrate those that have touched our lives. Do something 'extra'ordinary today. Our Lucky 13!!!

Going home

The docs trust that I can take care of Arianna at home. She is stable and cranky, good sign. I am just getting things ready and we our out the door. Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers.
I am ready to get some rest in my own bed!!! And Arianna wants to play on the floor.

I will do my best to let you all know how we are doing.
Thanks
Julianna

Just confirmed at 12:00 a.m.: Arianna has RSV. I am now looking at a much longer hospital stay.

I can't sleep and I have had no appetite.

I need some good vibes sent my way, please.

Arianna is Sick

Arianna had a fever of 105 yesterday, today we have been admitted to PCMC. Her lungs look bad, and we are waiting on cultures to come back. Please pray for her.